Surprise! (or not surprise). I’m coming back to the states for the holidays. I’m coming back to cuddle my little sister, drive on the right side of the road and visit meijer at 1 am. I’m coming to buy a new pair of nikes, drink slushies and make snow angels. I’ve got my little list of to dos and most of them are financially cheap and include touching the people I love.
I’m writing (for the first time in a long time I know, I know) to talk about what it feels like to come home. I’m grateful that I was able to come home about a year and a half ago to celebrate my baby bro and his super cool wife on their wedding day (I was the best woman, cool right?). During that visit, I experienced a phenomenon that I’ve heard other volunteers describe. The phenomenon that when we come home, sometimes it’s hard for people to know… what to… do with us I guess. How to ask us questions, what to ask, how to talk about issues, how to ask if the thousands of dollars of fireworks affect our hearts after our experiences in Zambia, how to interact with us, how to talk with us about Trump, how to bring up family events that happened while we are away, just what to do with us in general. Our presence might make some uncomfortable, understandably. We’re going through some big life changes and we make ourselves uncomfortable sometimes too. Perhaps a more evident and uncomfortable feeling many of us experience, is the feeling that we have when we want to share about our new lives but are nervous, don’t know how or don’t feel like the interest of hearing about it is there. So here are a few of my pointers on how to make my trip back home a little more comfortable for me (and hopefully for you!) and how to make me feel even more love during my trip home.
- Tell me that you don’t know what to ask (and I will figure something out)
- Ask me about the kids that I love
- Ask me about the differences between my life in the village and in the big city (where I now live)
- Ask me about what it’s like to miss out big events like weddings, funerals and sports games
- Hug me
- Ask me about my Zambian friends, brothers, sisters, aunties, uncles, mentors, supervisors, grandma’s and grandpa’s and how they’ve facilitated my growth, comforted me and gave Zambia meaning to me.
- Ask me about my volunteer family
- Ask me about my new job as the Peace Corps Volunteer Leader
- Ask me about Zambian hospitality
- Ask me about my Zambian family
- Ask me about my pupils
- Touch my face
- Ask me what it’s like living abroad with Trump as president
- Ask me what it was like living abroad with Obama as president
- Ask me to see some pictures
- Ask me to watch some videos
- Ask me to teach you some Bemba (the local language I used and one of the 72 Zambian languages)
- Ask me about any strange phrase I’m using (it might be a new habit. Would love to explain how English is often used differently
- Ask me about my pets
- Ask me about my house
- Tell me you don’t understand something that I’m saying
- Ask me about Oscar
- Ask me how many Mangos I’ve eaten (but don’t expect a real answer)
- Kiss my cheeks
- Ask my about my crew(s)
- Ask me about my daily life
- Ask me about the difference between my daily life in the village and my daily life in the city (things like cooking, bathing, using the bathroom, etc.)
- Ask me how my body is adjusting to the Michigan cold (and I will answer how it is not)
- Ask me about swimming in the lake with my babies
- Ask me about my newly found love for African music and dancing to it
- Ask me to dance for you (play a little music and I would love to)
- Talk about your experiences in travel as your personal experiences separate and different than mine
Please try not to:
- Ask me “how is Africa?”
- Ask me about seeing lions, tigers and elephants in my backyard
- Ask me a question if you aren’t interested in hearing my answer
- Ignore the fact that I’ve been away for the past two plus years
- Compare my experience to your trip abroad (or to anything really, and I promise to try not to compare mine to yours either)
I’m going to be vulnerable and explain that my life here is well… my life here. That to me means that I hold my experiences here deep, deep inside my heart. They are difficult to explain and sharing opens up that space for either validation in them or disappointment if I’m sharing with someone who seemingly doesn’t care. That sharing my life here feels risky sometimes because of that. So I am asking for your patience and grace while I learn how to share my life here and yet still protect it deep inside my heart, which feels like the safest and most appropriate place for it sometimes. Because it is so difficult to explain the value that I’ve found in my experiences here. I think that all of this is okay and I hope my loved ones and I are open to the journey of growing together in sharing our experiences.
I hope that me sharing these feelings hasn’t intimidated you into interacting or not with me during my visit home. I hope you will still feel open to me and share your love with me as you know I want to share my love with you. Even with the dos and don’ts that I’ve shared, I can feel y’alls hearts and will always follow that instinct. The instinct that tells me that your love will be enough for me. I hope that we can all be brave enough to be vulnerable in sharing our lives no matter how deep they might be being held at the moment. Thank you for your patience and grace as I step into my new unknown that I still call a home. See y’all on December 8th. Enjoy the front row seat to my reverse culture shock show…
Much love always.
In honor of my one year Zam-iversary, I’ll bypass the “sorry for the lack of posts” and the “Hannah the oversensitive” typical statements and get right to the chase. My time in Zambia is difficult to describe. It is everything. It is my highest highs and my lowest lows, my biggest epiphanies and the ultimate mundane. In honor of my one year in this place and the reflection it threw me into, I leave you with this: a list of random thoughts I’ve written during different times in my service. Things I’ve written in my journal/ my lesson plan book/ scrap papers/ the walls/ whatsapp chats/ etc.
June 14, 2015 (four days after arrival to Zambia)
Ba Rave (our training coordinator) – “Remember this is an experience that no one can take from you. It is so rich. Remember that. Not one bit of money could ever buy this experience from you. It will be with you forever.”
June 26, 2015
This present moment is beautiful. . Never thought that the sound of my feet could be so memorizing, the stars could be so bright, that these new relationships could feel so real so quickly, Wow, the universe is so good to me. It always brings me such wonderful people. I’m very happy here.
August 3, 2015
Tough day. I don’t want to write. But here I go; here are some things for which I am thankful:
- My Zambian family, the Lungus
- Past loves
- The ability to read and write
- Peace Corps Medical Office
- Zambian teachers who care
- That blanket on my bed
- An extra notebook
- Malarone (my malaria prophylaxis)
- Sunrises/ sunsets and their colors
September 5, 2015 (2 days after arrival in village in which I will serve)
Today I thought I could carry 20 liters of water on my head and dropped it in front of about ten people who all looked terrified. It shattered and eventually we all laughed.
Also a chicken got in my house and I couldn’t get it out. Then it pooped on my floor.
September 16, 2015
- Reading notes from friends in the U.S.
- Throwing rocks at the mana apple tree wth the neighborhood kids. Cheering when one falls. Sharing all the winners.
- Reading Bemba books with Bayama Ba Francis (host uncle). He is so patient and a great teacher.
- Conversations on the phone with family back home. It’s funny how close I can feel with them when we are so far away.
- Chalk writing with the neighborhood kids.
- Writing by candle light on the porch while cooking.
- Rare natural moments of laughing, laughing, laughing with Ba mayo (mom), Bayama (uncle), Ba Charity and Ba John.
September 20, 2015
Can I every think about the world the same or will I always think differently now? I think this experience is changing everything.
October 5, 2015
Today I wasn’t capable
I couldn’t spell, speak or hear
I was stupid and ignorant
People pointed out my faults
October 17, 2015
I wake up every morning and thank God for turning on the lights.
November 15, 2015
This weekend I did NOTHING productive. But I honestly have never felt closer to my Zambian family.
November 25, 2015
Thing’s I’m thankful for-
- Having power at school
- Sneaking winks with the kid in the overalls at church
- When some new cooking creation actually works
- When Bayama saw that I was having a hard time starting the fire so he came over with dry wood to help me.
- Watching kids read
- Joseph (a great pupil) “Madam I am missing you” on Saturday. (the last time he saw me was Friday)
- Little Oscar insisting on helping me with all my chores
- Voice messages from friends
December 9, 2015
I’ve been on this Peace Corps journey for 6 months exactly today. Wow!
December 31, 2015
The last day of 2015. Wow.
Hannah Mathers- most likely to be the hypest chick at the club. Most likely to fall in love with every place she goes, most likely to ask for directions, to write in her journal that she needs to write more, to laugh at herself, to need to communicate. Most likely to practice ‘out of sight, out of mind’, to lose stuff. Most likely to seek affection.
Learning a lot about myself.
January 5, 2015
I am a walking billboard of privilege and opportunities that many of the people around me will likely never have access to.
“You’ll live just like the people” they said. It greatly affected my decision to leave “everything” behind and “serve” in another country. My understanding of this whole experience has grown exponentially. In a way, I’m sure we are living like the people we are “serving”. We are speaking their language, fetching water at the same hole and waking up to the same sunrise that gives us light. However, “living like the people” doesn’t adequately describe this experience for me. Living like the people would mean no malaria prophylaxis, little food options, no peace corps appointed bike helper, and absolutely no toll free phone lines in case of emergencies where a cruiser may just magically appear at your door for a sprained ankle. It means no weekend trips to the boma (the closest city) just to kick it with friends. And it sure as hell means no Malawi trips to binge on food and booze, it means living in a skin color that has been oppressed since the beginning of “civilization” (something some volunteers understand). The privilege I was born into is deep. It’s not something that can just be stripped with a tiny 2-year leave from the over-luxurious comforts of the U.S. We are merely experimenting. We will never know their struggle.
January 7, 2016
“No matter how much logic I cram into my brain, it can’t push out the feelings in my heart.”
I’m on the up! Riding this slump out, doing what I gotta do to feel better.
February 15, 2016
It scares me when I realize how much of my happiness is based on others. My good days are based on others while my bad days also are.
February 19, 2016
I spend more time than ever thanking God for things that have always existed in my life. The sunlight in the morning that allows me to see. The wind that starts my brazier (my fire), The rain that waters the crops and fills up my bathing basin. The moon and the light it brings or the light it doesn’t bring so we can see the beautiful stars. Wow, God’s creation is truly beautiful. What a special little experience I am having here during my small time here on Earth. Who am I to be able to experience such joy?
February 25, 2016 (during a meeting)
WHAT’S THE POINT OF THIS?
March 23, 2016
The saddest things in my life:
- My memory
- All the lives I will never live
- All the lives I’ve lived but have forgotten
I can’t write these days. What’s up with me.
April 15, 2016 (on my walls)
“I am the one thing in life I can control.”
Always give grace. Cuz you sure as hell need it too, honey.
May 1, 2016
Sometimes I wonder if I am afraid to write because I’m afraid of what will be exposed in my own thoughts. I don’t feel very connected to my soul, to mother earth right now. I just feel a little disconnected lately. I haven’t had a moment where I am in awe of the universe’s beauty lately.
May 30, 2016
I don’t know how to tell you that I live in a small village in the Samfya district of the Luapula province in Zambia.
Yes, that’s in Africa
but I don’t know how to tell you that treating this continent like its just one, less fortunate, uniformed, hungry, dark skinned country is harmful and simply extremely false.
June 7, 2016 (in a letter to a family)
I’m so thankful for my peace corps volunteer community. We share stories, food, tears and laughter. I don’t know if I’ve ever been a part of a tighter friend group.
June 13, 2016
Had a couple really good days. Thankful for joy and grace and this present moment.
Written from the heart on August 25.
Chipembi is the name of the village where we spent the last three months training. (We are officially done with training!) It was packed with learning, challenges, stretching, growth, ahhh it was just intense. Which I am using as an excuse for why I have not written in a while (that and connection is hard to come by!)
I’m writing as a special typical me closure to this place where I truly feel so much growth has happened. I learned many surface lessons, like how to ride my bike on Zambian roads, how to fix my bike, how to hand wash my clothes, how to carry water on my head, how to wear chitenge (a special cloth wrap that woman wear/ use for everything here), how to speak Bemba (yay! I love it!), how to cook on a brazier (open fire), HOW TO TEACH!, how to bargain for vegetables (ahhh so many lessons). Aside from these tangible things I’ve learned, I feel like much deeper lessons have been taking place. I’ve only just begun to benefit from the many lessons that I know Zambia has for me in the next two years. The stretching has forced me to do some heart/ intention checking. Questions like- why am I here? How do I view the people I serve? How do I view people who serve me? I hope to continue this reflective attitude through my service (this is me asking you to call me out if I’m not).
I’m also trying new things. I’m acknowledging my insecurities and encouraging myself to not let them make my decisions. I’m focusing on choosing love over fear. I’m doing things that cause me pain but are best for me at this time (What starts off easy, ends up hard. What starts off hard, ends up easy). I’m stretching myself as much as I can! Some days I fail, but guess what? some days I have succeeded! And that’s pretty awesome. (I also give myself rest time don’t worry, momma)
My three months in Chipembi have been exhausting but growth filled. I’m so thankful to everyone who took part in my learning (the trainees, the trainers, my family, strangers on the street). As you know from my many “see you later” posts, ending chapters hurt my heart. I feel deeply connected with people (I know after only three months) and moving on hurts. Although yes (prepare for cliche) they will always be in my heart. But really, I believe in that stuff.
So my next step? Shortly, I will be sworn in as an official volunteer and will move to my permanent peace corps site (in Luapula, Zambia). Our first three months are called community entry where our only responsibility is to get integrated into the community by meeting as many people as we can, by speaking lots of Bemba, by eating lots of nshima (the staple Zambian dish), by observing classrooms, etc. Three months dedicated to shaking hands? Sounds like my kinda three months 🙂
Again, I’m choosing to acknowledge my emotions which are so mixed right now. Ending a chapter hurts my heart and beginning a new one excites it. I’m on a ride of many emotions and I’ve only just begun.
Thanks for showing me love. Much love back.
Written from the heart on July 25. Posted at first sign of available wifi.
I met my new house! We trainees visited current peace corps volunteers and our own soon to be homes to see what village life is really like. We spent time setting our own fires, observing Zambian classrooms, walking around, attending events (I even attended a wedding and kitchen party aka bridal shower! I shook my booty in front of a whole yard full of Zambians and we alllllll laughed super hard!) It was a fun week to say the least.
Jim and Julie (those two beautiful souls in the picture) are the current RED (rural education development) volunteers in this home (my new home) and were great hosts during our site visit. In September after we trainees swear in as official peace corps volunteers, I will be moving into this beauty.
My week was intense and full to the brim with lessons. You might be thinking, “oh man Hannah just realized she’s gonna be pooping In a hole for the next two years” or even “it just hit her that she has no microwave for quick meals.” You might even think, “she is just now understanding that fetching buckets of water for drinking, bathing and washing isn’t as peaceful as she initially thought.” And although yes most of these things have crossed my mind and maybe even caused some nervousness, no, they are still not on the top of my list of important lessons right now.
This week reaaalllyyyyy had me thinking about the effect that my actions may have on my community and on my time here. I said several times “this is the life you chose.” Later my mom reminded me of the better way of saying that “you are right where you are supposed to be.” ❤
Sticking out like a sore thumb, being called mozungu (foreigner), being asked for money and other difficult situations are all aspects that will be included in this life changing experience I will have. I’ve considered all of these things and even had peace about knowing they were coming before I moved to Zambia, but this week really made it all real. I didn’t consider how much thought I will need to make in the way I choose to spend my time, the people I choose to hang with, etc. Even decisions like whether to attend church or not where and with who can affect the way my community might look at me. This week, ish got real to put it simply. I started considering all of the decisions that I will be making in the next few years a pretty big deal. It’s difficult to articulate my feelings about this but it’s a lesson I surely needed to learn/ need to continue learning through my service. Of course, I have adapted so much to integrate into this culture, and I will surely need to continue doing so. I just pray that my heart stays soft and I don’t become jaded towards the process and the work I will put into integrating during my time here.
Learning this is by no means a bad thing. I have been known as being overly positive and having a flowery view of everything so yes, these feelings were coming and are good for me I know it. Like I promised myself from the beginning, I will be honest with myself and every emotion as it comes and shoooooot these are the real feelings for now!
Some details of my soon to be home: I am just a twenty minute walk from my school and my head teachers home (one of my new great friends/ Zambian family). After walking down a thin path to enter the official compound, you will pass by my insaka (gazebo) on your right. To your left, behind the mango tree (YES THERES A MANGO TREE IN MY FRONT YARD!), there is a big lake in view (about a five minute walk to the coast of it) and right in front of you is my new humble home. There’s a spacious porch where I have found much joy reading on while the sun sets in front of me and starting a fire for hot water for a cup of tea. To your right is the front door. When you enter, you’ll find all the necessities of a good kitchen (I’m gonna need to learn to cook ). Keep going to your left and there is a beatiful sitting room with a desk and a nice cushion for sitting. We spent much time here under candle light talking about our lives and sharing stories during our stay this past week. There are two big windows and the walls are painted yellow so the room is very bright. To your left, you’ll enter the bedroom where there is another nice sized window and a beautiful bed (a bed to call all my own!)
My chimbusu (toilet) and bathing shelter is in the back of the yard through someone else’s (hehe) sweet potato crops. It’s a beautiful home and I’m excited to be calling it mine very soon.
I hope to make it my little haven of peace. I hope it will be a place where I grow, learn, laugh, feel safe enough to cry, recharge and continue loving my new community the best I can.
Much love to each of you and thanks so much for your support and love!
Update- I swear in on August 28! Coming up very quick.
Typical Hannah disclaimer- this post is subjective and has got a lot of Hannah emotions all up in it. Also, as is everyone, my host family, the Lungus, are complex humans so I could never paint a proper picture of their beauty yet I will try my best to share a piece with you what they have shared with me
Moses Lungu aka bataata (dad in Bemba)
Ba Moses is a Bemba brick builder born and raised in Zambia. He loves laughing with me about my silly Bemba mistakes and takes welcoming me into his home seriously. He take a lot of time teaching me about Zambia’s peaceful history and helps around the house a lot. He works hard for his family and I can see his excitement about learning about new cultures. He loves the peace in his country.
Roster Lungu: pronounced Row-stah, aka ba maayo (mom in Bemba)
Ba Maayo is a wonderful woman who farms and also literally does everything around the house. She is a BOSS (that is her actual title if I were to give her one). She daily carries 20 liters of water on her head, 2-5 liter containers in her hands AND a 3 month old baby on her back for about a mile. She cooks, cleans, teachers, feeds, Etc. Even through broken Bemba, I feel deeply connected to her. I can feel her love for her children through her humble service to them (and I’m thankful she regards me as one of hers). Often, we have conversations and when I fail to understand in Bemba, she breaks out perfect English with passion! She’s clever, fun, hardworking and a lover of laughing.
Barryson Lungu (pronounced Bar-son, aka bandume- brother in Bemba, age 13)
Barryson is the eldest brother which is a pretty serious position to have in Zambia. He does a lot around the house and could teach all of us about obedience with a happy heart (I wish he was my friend when I was a child complaining about chores). He is quiet, but smart and curious about new things (like taking apart and putting my head lamp back together). He wants to be a pilot when he grows up and I know he can do it
Clifford Lungu (brother, age 9)
Clifford is a little dancer. He is very sweet hearted and I love how he takes care of his little brother (Ezekiel). He laughs and dances and runs and rides the bike around and does silly faces and makes funny voices (I’m certain he would make for a great actor). He LOVES school and is quite good at it If I don’t say so myself. He wants to be an teacher when he grows up and also, I am certain he would be great at it
Ezekiel Lungu (brother, age 5)- little Ezekiel. This boy (along with all of the family) brings a lot of joy into my life. He is so eager to live life. He plays in all the dirt he can find, he laughs loudly, smiles, runs, dances, plays some more, helps his momma with dishes, helps his momma cook, helps his brother Barryson gather the goats, helps with anything he possibly can, laughs more, cuddles with me, let’s me give him piggy back rides, teaches me Bemba and just loves love (we are similar in that way). He doesn’t know what he wants to be, but he’s gonna be good at it. I pray his heart always remains as filled with love as it is now.
Bizwao (Pronounced Biz-Waeo, brother, 3 months)- Bizwao eats and sleeps with his free time. He often breaks into a big laugh and then immediately back to a face of serious wonder. He’s growing fast!
Finishing up this post with tears in my eyes makes me realize once again how deep the connection is that I have with my new Zambian family. I’m so grateful that I’ve crossed paths with such beautiful souls. I will miss them dearly when I leave for my site (Samfya district in Luapula) in September and will hold each lesson they’ve taught me close to my heart. Thank you, Lungu family!
Much love. ❤
Whaaaaat upppppp! Long time no wifi (on my part at least). It’s been relaxing but I’ve been excited to update yall on my experience so far.
Morning bike ride sunrise
It would be foolish of me to pretend that I am ALL excitement, happiness and pure joy for every new chapter that I start. Truth is, yeah! I get nervous. Goodbyes are hard no matter how many times I convince myself that it is just a “see you later” and the unknown can be intimidating. That being said, peace trumps all other emotions when I know I’m making the right decision and right now, my peaceful emotions are BA and are dominating all others. alhumdulilah thank God.
My next chapter? It’s a big one folks (to me that is). I might even have to call it a brand new novel. A sequel to the book series I call my life. The news is… I joined the Peace Corps! In less than 2 months (June 8) I will leave for two years to volunteer in Zambia with the RED program (Rural Education Development). I’ll be teaching English. Those are the knowns as of now. There are plenty (and I mean plenty) of unknowns. I have been doing as much as I can to prepare myself (online research *mostly youtube videos that is*, meeting with RPCVs (returned Peace Corps volunteers), dating my people A LOT, etc.)
Here are some questions that people have asked:
- A) Ecuador unleashed a wanderlust that I cannot contain. I am excited about the unknowns of any trip that I take. About the people that I will meet, what they will teach me about life, myself, the universe, culture, nature, etc. “The more you know, the more you realize you don’t know.” I have found that to be so true. And there are people out there that know so much that I have no idea about. Topics I don’t even know exist. Holla to my peeps who understand that excitement! I’m thankful that Peace Corps is introducing me to my new community and can only imagine what I will learn from these new people. It’s like my next test in this journey called life. It feels so right.
Q) So you can’t find work in the United States?
- A) Maybe! But again with the peace that I felt in my heart after making this decision, I can’t help but follow it. Wouldn’t I be foolish to ignore that feeling? Or am I foolish for not following the traditional “get college degree, get married, buy house, settle down, have kids…. etc.” narrative that we are told? I guess we’ll find out after a few years *wink wink*
Q) How are you gonna handle the conditions you’ll be living in?
- A) Another unknown of the whole thing.. I’m not sure what exactly the conditions will be in my village. But likely (95% likely), I will have no running water or electricity. And yes, this will be a huge test for me! Even bigger than that one stats exam back in the day. A life test. How adaptable have I become and can I become through this? How savvy (as my Dad says) have I grown to be? Stay tuned… Anyway, yes. Like I said. I am nervous. But I can feel how right this is because even these challenges that I know I will face, feel peaceful.
Q) What are your biggest fears?
- I’m worried that a lack of presence will make it easy for people to forget about me. (I know sad but a real fear). I fear that I will miss my people so much that it will hurt everyday. I’m nervous that I’m not as strong as I think that I am and that I will fail (isn’t it like that with all dream chasers though?) I’m afraid that I’ll get painfully sick (yeah, diarrhea is inevitable I know) and will miss the comfort of home. I’m worried that a student will ask me a question and I won’t have the answer. I’m afraid of loneliness, mosquito bites, insomnia, macaroni and cheese cravings, internet withdrawal, that people won’t accept me, that I’m not healthy/strong/smart/brave/communicative/adaptable enough,… Yeah, I have a lot of narcissistic fears. They’re a real part of this process and I’m choosing to recognize them (even in the public eye of my blog hehe)
What questions do y’all have for me?
I’m thankful right now to my people for being extra sensitive with me. I’m emotional! (even more than normal… I know you didn’t think that was possible.) I feel like is a big step and I’m appreciative for everyone who has my back throughout it all. Much love ❤
Check out this link for my timeline of Peace Corps journey. Oooo la la 😉
Something that I don’t think about often in my comfortable community of English speakers and something that I will never truly understand as an native English speaker. I’m going to try hard to articulate my feelings from my first days in Egypt and the concept of the privilege of communication that I thought about. Be gracious! It’s difficult to express (I know right, the irony!)
El privilegio de Comunicación. Algo en que no pienso mucho a causa en mi comunidad con gente que habla ingles y algo que nunca voy a entender full a causa de ser una hablante nativo de ingles. Voy a tratar de articular mis sentimientos de mi primeros días en Egipto y el concepto del privilegio de comunicación en que pensé mucho. Se gracioso! Es difícil expresar y también es mucho mas expresarme en español. (Ya se, la ironía)
I have spent a mere 48 hours in a country where I don’t speak the language. Yet, I stood in lines that I wasn’t supposed to be in, walked too far to find something that I would normally ask for but didn’t out of fear of embarrassment and waited too long because I didn’t know how to say, “telephone? (I found out later it was telefon or mobile -_-)” I smiled and lifted my hands in the air like, “I don’t get it” and other times nodded to pretend like I understood what was being said. I said shukran (thank you) about a thousand times because I don’t know how to say much anything else and once said “mande?” by accident because my mind automatically goes to Spanish when I can’t speak English. It’s been an adventure and it’s only day three! I know that the adventure and learning continue. Through this very short time, I thought a lot about a few of things –
- I thought SO much about my non-native English speakers in the states. To all my native Arabic/ Spanish/ Kurdish/ Portuguese/ Persian/ etc. speakin people who are learning English/ living in the States, MAD LOVE TO Y’ALL! I feel a connection already with you all and the struggle!
- My host took me to a lunch with her two friends. They made an effort (and succeeded) in speaking to me in English to make me feel comfortable and part of the conversation. Also, the Egyptian man next to me in the airplane spoke full English with me. This had me thinking, when’s the last time any of my non-native English-speaking friends was given this privilege in the U.S? I don’t see many people in the States going out of their way to speak in another language to make a guest feel comfortable. I realized through this that speaking English is a huge privilege because likely there will be someone who knows at least some English. Also, why don’t we make more of an effort to learn other languages/ cultures to have a more welcoming country? Finally, although I am in THEIR country, people are still so kind about speaking the language that I speak. The heart of life is good ❤ I hope to be this to others in my community when I return.
- Just because I can’t speak Arabic, doesn’t mean I’m stupid and I know that. More importantly, just because people don’t speak English, doesn’t mean they’re stupid. I think this is far too often the perception in the States of people who don’t speak English and it’s just wrong. This limitation of communication is extremely humbling.
- I can always learn their language (and should!) and now have an even bigger desire to do so.
- Non-verbal communications exists J Here are some examples of the art of facial communication (that I just made up). I am learning this art and am I’m sure I will advance in it during my time in Egypt… It’s a serious study ya know. 😉
Pase poco tiempo (solo 48 horas) en un país donde no hablo su idioma. Pero, pase tiempo en filas de que no debía, camine tanto para encontrar algo de que normalmente pediría pero no lo hice a causa del temor de vergüenza y espere tanto tiempo porque no sabia la palabra teléfono (luego aprendí es telefon o mobile -_-) Y sonreí así como “no se!” y otro tiempo pretendí que entendí aunque no entendí nada. Yo dije shukran (gracias) mil veces porque no puedo decir mucho mas y una vez dije “mande?” porque mi mente automáticamente va a español cuando no puedo hablar en ingles. Durante este tiempo pequeño, pensaba mucho en algunas cosas –
- Pensaba mucho en mis amigos que son hablantes non-nativos de ingles pero están el los estados unidos o aprendiendo ingles. MUCHO AMOR! Ya me siento una conexión con uds y el aguante.
- Mi anfitrión me llevo a almorzar con sus amigos. Ellos trataron (y tuvieron éxito) en hablar conmigo en ingles para que me sintiera mas cómoda y parte de la conversación. También, el hombre en el avión me hablo totalmente en español. Eso me hizo pensar… cuando eso paso con uno de mis amigos que no son hablantes nativos de ingles? No veo mucha gente en los estados unidos que tratan bien duro hablar en otro idioma para que una persona se sienta mas cómodo. Me di cuenta que la habilidad de hablar ingles es un privilegio porque es popular y probablemente habrá una persona que puede hablar ingles (por lo menos un poco) . También, por que no tratamos mas de aprender otros idiomas o culturas para tener un país mas amable? Finalmente, aunque estoy en su país, ellos estaban bien amable hablar en el idioma de que yo hablo. El corazón de la vida es puro. ❤ espero ser así en mi comunidad cuando regrese.
- Aunque no puedo hablar en árabe, no soy estúpida y ya se eso. Mas importante, aunque una persona no habla ingles, no es estúpida tampoco. Pienso que este pensamiento es tan popular en los estados unidos y solamente es incorrecto. Es humillante tener una limitación de comunicación.
- Siempre puedo aprender su idioma (y debo!) y ahora tengo muchos ganas hacerlo.
- La comunicación non verbal existe. J Acá son algunos ejemplos del arte de comunicación de la cara (acabo de hacerlo). Estoy aprendiendo este arte y espero mejorar durante mi tiempo en Egipto… Es un estúpido serio pa q tu sepa 😉
Here are a couple more cool things that happened…
Aquí son algunas mas cositas chéveres que pasaron hoy…
I watched the sunset over cats and kids playing soccer, I watched The Square, a movie about the Egyptian revolution with two Egyptians (one who was on the streets during one of the protests!) and received a new perspective on the issue and I communicated very little in Arabic. Little progress is still progress!
Mire la salida del sol con gatos y niños jugando fútbol, Mire “The Square”, una película de la revolución egipcio con dos egipcios reales (una que estuvo en las calles durante una de las protestas) y recibí una perspectiva nueva con la situación y Hable poquito en árabe con la gente. Poco progreso todavía es progreso!
Public arabic practice. I’m going to try and use all my new vocab words from the day so bare with me 🙂
Thanks everyone for listening/ reading/ giving feedback/ thoughts. Much love to y’all from Egypt!
Gracias todos por escuchar/ leer/ dar ideas. Mucho amor a todos de Egipto!